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The Sun Struggles Up

The most natural feeling as the sun struggles up is my bones grinding against yours
You are jarring and crushing and breaking your promises to the ghost of my childhood
Still a whispered breath trapped within your vena cava keeps me cold and you alive

The ribcage forged of your love protects the soul of my past and memories of my father
Washing the bony joints of our crippled fingers the dirty water runs down the baby’s face
The weak understand this is a baptism of desperation and consolation but not redemption

The charred remains of a dream I couldn’t afford and you couldn’t live without haunt us
Our bones have been put up for the first thaw and there’s something burning on the stove
We argue His presence in the room but we don’t deny it as we watch the sun struggle up

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Summer Stew

Through breathing the icy blue mist
The cleansing can begin
The shell can break away
And fall to the ground
The soul can be stirred gently
Like a cauldron of summer stew

The Summer Began

The summer began with a cool breeze
It made her uncomfortable and cautious
She dressed in layers of many different colors
She took his hand and they walked into the summer
Cautious and many layered waiting to see what was next

Juggling Smoke

Very suddenly and very directly
The cold wind shut me up
Like I came down with yesterday’s rain
Like a plug opened in my head
And all of what I am ran out of me

I stood there sweating and aching
Not at all sure what to do
But I couldn’t speak
And I couldn’t hear
And I could hardly see

It was like I was juggling smoke
Right hand over left hand
The smoke never returning
Each breath scorched my lungs
And I was helpless to cry out
My voice had left me
Carried off on each cloud of smoke
Never to return

September 1, 2013

The stars came out tonight for you – they came out for you but you were gone
So I was left with my old cat and some cold beer and a pen and paper

I lost my glasses between the words and the beer
And could only think about how sad that someone else saw your stars
They were delicate like you – and quiet – and sweet – like you

It was the rain that ended the night – that turned off the music
It was a brief rain – but with lasting effect both cooling and sad
The pink clouds in the grey sky betrayed us but only after love and music
The sky crashed down and washed away the heat rising from our fingers
The sky crashed down and washed away the love rising in my throat

I saw the stars tonight – I saw each one and counted them
I drank another beer – then another and counted every star I could see
I rubbed the old cat behind her ears the way she likes me to
Then I wrote this down and I will never share it with you – but I wrote it for me

That has to be good enough – it is good enough for me and the stars
It’s good enough for the old cat and for anyone else who saw your stars but not you

In Guam

The silence slices through me like a whale-bone knife
Rendering my soul two parts that no longer make any sense
We didn’t choose this – but this is what we are now
I can hear your voice like a hushed whisper across the beach in February
I can feel your touch but it is only a memory – a dream that is long over

The sadness brushes up against me like an old lady trying to get her pills
My body is jostled without humor or warmth against my soul’s will
We didn’t ask for the bridge that doesn’t quite span our love
You can feel my love rising up around you like a warm wet flame
You can hear me sing love songs of other places and other times

Te Quiero

Te quiero I scream in the middle of the night
Then I kick out the window to let in the light
Then I run down the stairs and out to the street
And I scream to the sky as I bleed from my feet

Te quiero mi amor
And speak to me of love once more
Te amo mi amor
And walk with me through love’s door
Te necessito – te adoro
And share with me loves glory
Te quiero – Te quiero – Te quiero mi amor

Te Amo I sing to the rainy summer night
There’s a fire in mi alma burning with the light
My heart’s a shameless flame that burns tonight for you
So I sing te amo and I scream I love you

Te quiero mi amor
And speak to me of love once more
Te amo mi amor
And walk with me through love’s door
Te necessito te adoro
And share with me loves glory
Te quiero – Te quiero – Te quiero mi amor

Te quiero I scream in the middle of the night
Then I burst through the sky to get close to the light
Then I crash to the ground and I kick down the door
Te amo – te adoro – te quiero mi amor

Te quiero mi amor
And speak to me of love once more
Te amo mi amor
And walk with me through love’s door
Te necessito te adoro
And share with me loves glory
Te quiero – Te quiero – Te quiero mi amor